from so far away,

I only met you a short time ago

but, in my mind, you seem to stay.

You’ll break my heart, I feel it,

you’ll ruin me, I know,

but theres something in the system,

so, excitement, I’ll let it grow.

I can’t say I’m not doubtful,

I can’t say you’ll agree,

theres something in your demeanor

just when you’re with me.

You disappear, forever,

but you’ll come back someday, I hope,

those days we spent together,

they have me in a hold.

Perhaps you never noticed,

perhaps I don’t see clear,

a small delusion in my head,

a small and subtle tear.

Don’t worry, I won’t tell you,

I’m not as brave as most,

I’ll give you everything I have,

without letting you emote.

I’ll imagine all of it,

my heart to be locked away,

It used to be attached to me,

but it can wait another day.

I cannot fathom why you’d try

to understand my mind,

I’m both attracted and putoff

by the tension of our kind.

I just want a conversation,

that i’d like to never end,

I just wan’t a mutual talk,

something in the wind.

I can’t say that I’m classical,

I’d love to fly a plane,

I can’t say that I’m romantic,

because I think that flowers are lame.

I can’t pretend I’m perfect,

just so you know, I’d never try,

I just want to talk to you,

and hope for a reply.

They say that you’re too complicated,

that you have too much on your plate,

that I can’t be just interested,

because it’s just not fate.

To them I say “whatever,

I never said I was,

I simply started texting him,

it may be nothing, don’t kill the buzz”.

And truthfully, I wonder,

how did they seem to know,

“there’s a tension” so they say,

but now I’m sure it’s blown.

So have a time while you’re away,

but just don’t turn a ghost,

I’ll pretend to carry on,

and when you return, I’ll host.