And who says I can’t admire you
from so far away,
I only met you a short time ago
but, in my mind, you seem to stay.
You’ll break my heart, I feel it,
you’ll ruin me, I know,
but theres something in the system,
so, excitement, I’ll let it grow.
I can’t say I’m not doubtful,
I can’t say you’ll agree,
theres something in your demeanor
just when you’re with me.
You disappear, forever,
but you’ll come back someday, I hope,
those days we spent together,
they have me in a hold.
Perhaps you never noticed,
perhaps I don’t see clear,
a small delusion in my head,
a small and subtle tear.
Don’t worry, I won’t tell you,
I’m not as brave as most,
I’ll give you everything I have,
without letting you emote.
I’ll imagine all of it,
my heart to be locked away,
It used to be attached to me,
but it can wait another day.
I cannot fathom why you’d try
to understand my mind,
I’m both attracted and putoff
by the tension of our kind.
I just want a conversation,
that i’d like to never end,
I just wan’t a mutual talk,
something in the wind.
I can’t say that I’m classical,
I’d love to fly a plane,
I can’t say that I’m romantic,
because I think that flowers are lame.
I can’t pretend I’m perfect,
just so you know, I’d never try,
I just want to talk to you,
and hope for a reply.
They say that you’re too complicated,
that you have too much on your plate,
that I can’t be just interested,
because it’s just not fate.
To them I say “whatever,
I never said I was,
I simply started texting him,
it may be nothing, don’t kill the buzz”.
And truthfully, I wonder,
how did they seem to know,
“there’s a tension” so they say,
but now I’m sure it’s blown.
So have a time while you’re away,
but just don’t turn a ghost,
I’ll pretend to carry on,
and when you return, I’ll host.
Rolynda
